Something very terrible has happened. The light in my life has gone out. My best friend, my world, my little brother chose to leave this world. I promised him recently I could not live without him, and if he made this choice I would surely follow. I don’t know if he didn’t believe me or didn’t care. I live each day breaking that promise, although I wish very much I would keep it. Jealous. I just couldn’t do that to my mom, especially now. He always did have a selfishness I envied. So I will continue to live each day, but my heart died May the seventeenth, year two thousand fourteen.

Something very terrible has happened. The light in my life has gone out. My best friend, my world, my little brother chose to leave this world. I promised him recently I could not live without him, and if he made this choice I would surely follow. I don’t know if he didn’t believe me or didn’t care. I live each day breaking that promise, although I wish very much I would keep it. Jealous. I just couldn’t do that to my mom, especially now. He always did have a selfishness I envied. So I will continue to live each day, but my heart died May the seventeenth, year two thousand fourteen.